Today was rough. What is going on with me? I am an emotional rollercoaster, crying, laughing, happy, sad, worried, all at once! This second pregnancy is really throwing me for a loop, or maybe I just forgot that I went through this with my first pregnancy too.
After mass my husband made a silly comment, one that would not affect me on any other day, but oh no, not today! Today that comment brought me to sobbing and yelling like a toddler. I didn’t recognize myself! For the past few days I’ve felt this overwhelming sense of love for my little girl. Maybe it is because I know that not before long she will have to share me, or maybe it is because she is falling asleep so easily now and I can breathe easier. But this overwhelming love and worry about the future has gotten my emotions all of the place.
After calming down I thought about it a bit. Why am I acting like this? Why does my heart hurt so much, I feel like it’s going to burst. Then I realized that maybe this is God’s way of growing me and preparing me for a second child. Just maybe He is increasing my capacity to love and it’s overwhelming me I don’t know what to do with it.
So let’s no longer view the emotions we go through during pregnancy as negative, or silly, or ‘just hormones’. Maybe there is a much bigger reason for us pregnant ladies to transition through this time of intense tears and joy. It is helping our hearts make room for a little person who will live there forever.