I am pregnant with my second baby and have just stepped into my third trimester. This pregnancy is so much different than my first! My emotions are through the roof. I do not know how my life will change in 3 months. Three months! And they’re the holiday months, which mean they will just fly by quicker!
I do not know how I can show my first born all my love. I want to write it down before I hold her little sister in my arms. I need to get this on paper so that she can one day read it and know how I felt as only ‘her’ mommy. If I wasn’t typing this on a computer you would see the tear stained spots on the paper.
My Dearest Little Sue,
You made me a mommy and have changed my life completely. I used to be so focused on worldy things, so concerned with trivial matters, but you changed all of that. I no longer care about wearing the newest fashions, or getting my nails done, or being in the know with the current news. All those concerns melted away once you took your first breath.
In an instant my world started orbiting around you. Are you comfortable? Are you happy? Are you fed? I joined the leagues of other mommies and learnt from them. They taught me how to breastfeed, which baby carriers to use and gave me advice in the middle of the night. Because of you I have found a group of amazing women to connect with.
Because of you, Daddy and I have a stronger relationship. We no longer only focus on ourselves, but we pour our love into you. I love Daddy more because he loves you. You are a little extension of me, and when daddy tosses you up in the air, or gives you tiny kisses, it is as if I feel those flutters against my cheek too!
Because of you I have grown closer to Christ. You have so sweetly and innocently taught me patience. You have increased my love for our Blessed Mother. And you have truly made me appreciate and love the Eucharist. If I do attain Heaven one day, you will have played an immense part in the process.
Your sweet smiles and giggles light up my day. Your spunky little walk and the way you call everyone daddy fills me with joy. When you fall and hurt yourself, I cry with you. When you’re running a fever and feeling gloomy, my day is miserable too. I will miss sharing these moments with only you. I know my love for you and your little sister will grow and God will grant me the graces I need, but right now, I will cherish every day of these last 3 months with only you.
Because of you my life completely changed and will never return to what it was before. You are my first born, the little child that made me a mother. And although our family will grow and your precious sister will soon join us, the change will not be so dramatic. My world will grow but not shift as it did when you were born.
To my dearest little Sue, thank you.
To all my mommy friends, how have you experienced transitioning from one child to two? Are you planning on making any mistakes again with your second little one that you did with your first?